I'm Such A Horrible Person
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nothing_rhymes_with_iantoI think I've said this on the A/N on some of my fics, but I absolutely ADORE character abuse. I feel so horrible whenever I say that, but it's true. It just makes me so sadistically happy to see my favorite characters get beaten up or yelled at or sad. I love making them miserable or killing off one half of my favorite pair just to make the other one go through the pain of loss. It makes me incredibly happy. I have no idea why. But I love it. It's one of the reasons I watched Supernatural so faithfully. Kripke seemed to be a huge lover of character abuse. He always beat up Sam and Dean like crazy, or killed one or the other.
But I love bringing characters psychological pain so much more. I have no idea why, but it's so much more fun to write or read. The language of pain is just so amazing and fun to play with. One reason I love writing angst is because I can be so artistic and descriptive with my sentences and wording. It's not that I'm not descriptive with my happy fics, but it's just so much easier for me to write in a flourishing, descriptive, aching and artsy style when it's sadness and pain and misery I'm writing about. As proven by my many many angst fics.
And for some reason, all of my favorite characters from any TV show are the ones with the painful past, or the ones who are damaged or fucked up or had some horrible childhood experience. For example, Brian, of course, but I love Reid from Criminal Minds, who had a painful childhood and got beat up a lot; Dean from Supernatural, who also had a painful childhood, and also has absolutely no self-worth or self esteem and much of the confidence he exudes is a front (much like Brian), and he constantly feels guilty for things that he is not solely responsible for; I love Gale's character of Kyle in Wake, who also had a horrible childhood and seemed to have been very damaged by it; James Dean's pained character of Jim in Rebel, and Sal Mineo's Plato, both with childhood pains of their own and very fucked up families. And with all of them, their pasts come back to haunt and hurt them. And that's the most enjoyable thing to watch, for me. But not just their pasts. If they fuck up in some way, or thing they fuck up, or get tortured or hurt for whatever reason, I just love watching their pain. Brian, after the bashing; Reid, during and after he was tortured by Tobias Henkel; Dean, when Sam died, any time he felt affected by John, after he came back from hell, any time he was tortured by whatever baddie had him that week, etc.
My best friend and I are both huge lovers of character abuse and angst and character death. We wrote a (admittedly, terrible) Supernatural fanfiction together and pretty much every scene, Sam or Dean got beat up. As you can from my LJ, many of my stories are angsty or painful or have a character death. No idea why I love it, I just do.
Anyway, this rant was brought on because I was reading A little love is stronger than a lot of hate by me and Mr Jones on Fanfiction.net. Okay, rant over. If you guys like character abuse, etc, tell me! Give me more ideas of what you want me to do to Brian and Justin!
But I love bringing characters psychological pain so much more. I have no idea why, but it's so much more fun to write or read. The language of pain is just so amazing and fun to play with. One reason I love writing angst is because I can be so artistic and descriptive with my sentences and wording. It's not that I'm not descriptive with my happy fics, but it's just so much easier for me to write in a flourishing, descriptive, aching and artsy style when it's sadness and pain and misery I'm writing about. As proven by my many many angst fics.
And for some reason, all of my favorite characters from any TV show are the ones with the painful past, or the ones who are damaged or fucked up or had some horrible childhood experience. For example, Brian, of course, but I love Reid from Criminal Minds, who had a painful childhood and got beat up a lot; Dean from Supernatural, who also had a painful childhood, and also has absolutely no self-worth or self esteem and much of the confidence he exudes is a front (much like Brian), and he constantly feels guilty for things that he is not solely responsible for; I love Gale's character of Kyle in Wake, who also had a horrible childhood and seemed to have been very damaged by it; James Dean's pained character of Jim in Rebel, and Sal Mineo's Plato, both with childhood pains of their own and very fucked up families. And with all of them, their pasts come back to haunt and hurt them. And that's the most enjoyable thing to watch, for me. But not just their pasts. If they fuck up in some way, or thing they fuck up, or get tortured or hurt for whatever reason, I just love watching their pain. Brian, after the bashing; Reid, during and after he was tortured by Tobias Henkel; Dean, when Sam died, any time he felt affected by John, after he came back from hell, any time he was tortured by whatever baddie had him that week, etc.
My best friend and I are both huge lovers of character abuse and angst and character death. We wrote a (admittedly, terrible) Supernatural fanfiction together and pretty much every scene, Sam or Dean got beat up. As you can from my LJ, many of my stories are angsty or painful or have a character death. No idea why I love it, I just do.
Anyway, this rant was brought on because I was reading A little love is stronger than a lot of hate by me and Mr Jones on Fanfiction.net. Okay, rant over. If you guys like character abuse, etc, tell me! Give me more ideas of what you want me to do to Brian and Justin!
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Date: 2010-10-18 11:41 am (UTC)I don't mind reading angsty fics that deal with torture,actually I don't think I have read real torture fics,any recs?
I am looking forward to seeing how you end up Alone and Colder,although having read this post im guessing it won't be a happy ending lol
Hugs you tight
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Date: 2010-10-18 04:35 pm (UTC)I don't think he would trust anyone else, even Daphne or Emmett, to help him the way Brian did. Because even though he and Daphne are best friends, and Emmett is extremely supportive, Brian knew the how and why he was going through this pain, because Brian had his own form of PTSD as well. So I think that even though (in my opinion, the way I viewed the show and Daphne's actions) Daphne probably went to find Justin and found Brian instead with Justin bleeding out, she still doesn't fully understand because she wasn't there.
So yeah, that's my long, convoluted way of saying there's not gonna be a happy ending. I'm working on a happy story right now, though, based on the It Gets Better Campaign.